An interesting experience

This is a very interesting experience. You probably know by now that I've lost my job.
What's so interesting, is how people react. Some people more or less say that I have myself to blame. They say; you're too stubborn, you're not political correct, you have to much temper, you are a bit of a besserwisser. Oh, it really sounds like I'm a bitch when spelled out like that :(
One person even said that I had too many ideas and proposals. Come on, that's not a bad thing, is it?

Some other people, they do everything they can to help me. They are generous with their ideas, with their contacts and they really want to cheer me up, and get me going. I'm so happy for knowing these people. I really am.

The rest, they don't say a word. Not to me, anyway. They probably gossip like crazy and inform everyone they know, but to me directly they don't say a single word. This large group of people are not my friends, are they...?

The first group that thinks I'm a bitch, maybe they mean well too. Maybe they just want me to change. But how is it possible to change a middleage woman that has been a pain in the ass since she was a little kid? You know, telling the teacher when she made a mistake and so on..

I've actully been trying to change. I try not to fight about everything these days. I don't know to go into details here, but I've recently "let things go" when I felt I should have been discussing and claiming my right. I did not. I don't know if I will regret that.

Maybe in the end I will be like those people who just let anything pass without reacting, without saying a word.

Someone said that when you get into trouble, then you'll find out who are your friends. Can't say I'm in trouble, at least not yet, but I think that's true. And I'm happy to say; it turned out that I have some very good friends.