Autumn day

One of those days, when everything feels sad
Looking for and finding small nice things
But not enough to get me out of my mood
A sad feeling

Nothing works and it all get worse
No relation feels good
Tracked in a bad circle
Close to tears

Is there any joy
Don't feel any whatsoever
Best would be to hide

Sounds great
Sleep tight
Tomorrow is a new one
So far spoiled..

Impressions from your first date

You have asked a wonderful woman out for a date. She's in your age.
You know she is in the same situation and you have some things in common.

When you meet her you watch her shoes instead of looking her in the eye.
Your focus on shoes makes her realize how short you are and how you probably don't like to feel short beside a women wearing high heels.

You walk her to a restaurant and you order and pay for your drink at the bar.
She draws the conclusion that you don't think she is worth a drink. She can also see that you have been taking a drink at home in advance. Alcohol is expensive in Sweden, especially at restaurants and bars and you are obviously careful with your money.

Since you want to show your date who you are, you start by telling her the story of your life, including how you met your ex-wife and a summary of all the quarrels you two have had. You also describe some funny ideas you have when it comes to bringing up children, like how you made a lot of money by letting your child at an early age play instruments in the subway.

You ask your date what she wants to do with her life, and in return you give her an in depth description of your plans to buy a one room cottage in archipelago without electricity and tap water some day. Most important to you is to avoid hard work and anything that needs maintenance.

You brag about how many friends you have and even include former girlfriends. You describe your relations to a few female friends, how you evaluate them, compare them and spend vacations with them one after another on a rented boat. Your date believes you needed someone to take care of the household and share the bill with. She doesn't feel tempted to compete with those women on sharing the bill and washing the dishes.

You ask your date some questions about her life and give her an extensive description of what you value and expect from a future partner.

The wonderful woman returns home in the summer evening feeling both sad and awkward. She would have wanted you to show how you can make her laugh. In case you would have been Mr Right for her, would this date have been something memorable to look back upon as the very first time you met each other?

But on the other hand, she is actually quite happy for the lesson on what behavior and subjects you should avoid on your first date with a wonderful person. Maybe your date doesn't want to hear about your entire life and all your problems, and maybe she doesn't want to give out details about her life. How can you fall in love with someone if all you talk about are serious matters like what experience, what requirements and what expectations you have on your future parter?

Consensus

A person has told me several times "you are the only one with that opinion" as if it would matter to me.
First of all, unless he is a mindreader, how does he know what opinion everybody else has?
Secondly, even if I was the only one of earth having an opinion, wouldn't make a difference to me, on the contrary.
If I have the ability to think differently than the lot, I'm happy. If I see things for a different angle I contribute. Consensus isn't my bag.

Married FB couples

Married couples who live together, who meet every day
why do they have to communicate via facebook?
We all believe they live happily together,
why are they stating it officially every day?
(it's true, every single day)
I'm starting to get suspicious.
Is one of them showing off, reminding or demonstrating the territory.
Or don't they remember how to talk the old fashion way..?
Whatever reason, don't write "kisses" to your mate every day,
if you aren't asking for advice on how to exercise it in IRL.

No wallflower

I love music, and I dancing is great fun
The couple dancing thing makes it all complicated
I don't get happy by watching other people dance
On the contrary, I get miserable
To hear the music and not being allowed to dance
Just because nobody asked me to
What is this? Nineteenth century?

Not impossible

Nothing is impossible. Not even things that seems absolutely unlikely to happen.
It's possible to do things  with your life. To improve it. To reach whatever goals you have.
I just found out that a person finally had courage to do something he had wanted to do for many years.
I'm happy for him.
It seems he has actually reached many of his goals.
So, just set goals and starts reaching them!