Today thoughts

To the world:
"if you don't give me any compliments, I won't feel appreciated"
"if you don't give me any credit, I won't think you see any of my efforts"
"if you don't show me there is a reason to love me, I won't feel lovable"

Need to give some compliments, some credit and make people feel they are lovable..
Maybe I will get some back?!

Parents, teens and being a mother

I met my parents the other day. Then I discussed with my son how much we are products of our childhood.

Yes, he said, I can see that you're trying to do things differently. Differently compared to how you were brought up. But it is still a reaction. Either you are like your parents even though you don't realize it or you do completely differently and then it's a reaction. 

He also tried to explain things that makes him do the opposite as a reaction. I guess the learning is just to try something else, without comparing with my own teen hood.

I still can't tell my parents what mistakes they have done. Now they are too old. I just have to keep trying being a mother. It must be better to try, do mistakes than to not do anything...?

Blues

Let's face it, life is a bitch. With that as a baseline you can do a lot. Enjoy things and feel happy about all kind of things.
I think I need someone to balance my bluesy view upon life, because I can't imagine I will change that much.
For the moment I feel sick. It feels like a familiar sickness as when I was a kid.
Do I know how to play a blues?