torsdag 25 november 2010

Stuck in a crossing

Next time anyone asks me what I do, maybe I should answer nurse, hairdresser or I take care of children. Something female with a low salary. Most of them live nice lives since they have married someone who earns more. Why did I struggle myself?

I remember when I was sitting in my parents bedroom and wondering about my future. I was studying in their bedroom because there were no other quite place during daytime and evenings. This time at least I've got my own apartment. I'm still wondering what to do.

I'm tired of explaining to people what my plans were, or what jobs I thought I could get.
Maybe I should rethink my strategy, or do I already do it too often?

People ask me what I really want to do, and expect answers like "save the world". I'm sorry to make them disappointed. If they want to save the world, why don't they? Why should I be more likely to save the world than they are?

Anyway I'm quite fed up with being stuck in this crossing now.