lördag 1 augusti 2009

Studying the human behavour

I know I should forget. I should forget that I knew what was going on just by looking at certain people and how they behaved. People who looked the other way instead of into my eyes. Just by looking at them I knew exactly when certain decisions were taken. It was pretty awful.

Isn't it funny how people treat you differently depending on what position you have? You realize the difference if you go from a position where you have some influence to a position where you have nothing to say. Some people don't even make the little effort to smile to you, and managers feel threatened and wants you to "know your place", to be quite and not speak up.

When you go the other way, to a better position, you will be surprised how many people that smile and talk to you in the elevator or in the corridor. You might think that they are happy to see you or happy for you sake, at least that's what I did..

But then when you're on your way out, it's all different. I remember some people who came into the elevator where I was standing. I knew it might be the last time I saw them so I looked at them ready to say something, but it seems they didn't see me although I was standing less than a meter away. I said "bye" when they left, but I don't know if they heard. I had known them for many years. What's the point of hugging people goodbye that don't see you?

A few people are professional, since they expect to meet me again soon in some other role. That's kind of encouraging.
While others who are good friends really want to support me, although they have nothing to gain apart from my gratitude and my friendship. Maybe I should remember those and forget about the rest.