Keep applying

I'm applying for jobs where they look for someone else. Then I try to look like someone else. Sometimes I find job ads where they look for me. Exactly for the skills I have and for someone with my experience. Let's see if I get called for an interview now or not. I had to fill in my date of birth, of course. They asked if I speak Russian. Eh, no...

A former colleague asked me if I had had any trial periods of employment. What? I've hardly even been to any interviews. People tell me my CV looks great, so the question is why.

To use old contacts? Some of them don't answer mails. I shouldn't take it personal but if we used to be good friends, I do take it personal. Guess they are busy. Quite a few friends have disappeared while others are supporting. Good to know which ones the few good ones are. I believe they think "if could have been me". The ones that have disappeared probably think they better stay away otherwise they might catch it, as if it was some sort of disease. Guess they knew the winning concept of having successful friends.

I need to try to do something that there is a demand for. So there will be many opportunities. Something where my age isn't a problem. I don't need much money. How hard can it be?

Now I'm lying. I've had some simple jobs long time ago that I didn't like much. I want to do things I'm good at. I want to have some challenges. I want to learn new things. I want to love my work. Guess I'm all spoiled. Maybe we all are.