Me ten years ago

Today I've been visiting my professional coach. Don't know why, but every time I see her I feel absolutely worthless. Today I realized that I've got an age problem. I believe my age is a problem, but my coach believe it is not. I think she is wrong.

I don't understand why anyone would hire a middle-age person as long as there are younger people available. My coach tries to explain that a lot of company wants more experienced personal. I guess she means that I'm "experienced".

Let's compare myself with my younger me. Ten years ago I was learning new things all the time, but today people get surprised if I want to learn something new.

About ten years ago I had my middle-age crisis. I decided I didn't want to sit and watch TV in front of an open fire in the countryside during the summer, like a retired person. I wanted more out of life, more excitement. Today I'm happy if I may light a fire at all.

Ten years ago I had a temporarily dip in my physical fitness. Today I'm happy if I may take a long walk.

Ten years ago my kids looked up to me and asked me for help. Today my kids think I'm a failure in all aspects and hope they will do better themselves.

Ten years ago I thought I had half my life still to live. Today I think maybe I'll die soon, so I better live today.

Ten years ago I had dreams, today I know it's ridiculous to dream.

If there was a ten years younger version of me, I would certainly go for that one.