Of course I know women and men are treated differently. But this is the first time in my life I work with men who don't bother to hide how they count women's work completely different from men's work.
A fairly young man who expresses "oh, I'm in a meeting with only women" and afterwards to a male colleague "you should have heard them, those women how they went on" has he only been working with men before? Another man is talking about a couple of women having responsibility as "the girls" while he respectfully uses the name of the man in the same organization who has got less responsibility.
It's a feeling. I am meeting an attitude that I'm not used to meet. Am I really not used to it? Maybe I'm just older and notices details. Maybe I just want some respect.
What their attitude does to me? I get focused. I play their game. I try to be a man in their world.
I'm rather a bitch than a girl.