söndag 7 februari 2010

My life experience is about crashing my prejudices

When I was young, even when I was about 25, I was walking around in life collecting experiences. Whenever something new happened to me, I was thinking;"this is a good experience to have". I wasn't really experiencing "life is happening now", but I was preparing myself for the rest of my life. When I was traveling at work I was being grateful for the opportunity to learn. I remember having no idea at all what clothes to wear at different occasions, like when representing the company I worked for. (As a girl that's much more difficult to learn, since men tend to wear suits at all occasions, and there were hardly any older females around to learn from.)

In my private life I was of course also learning a lot of things. Like having my own place, how to have parties, how to handle boyfriends parents and very much on how to manage my own expectations on a relation. It was like meeting the real life and experience how it was crashing with all I knew about life from my childhood but also from reading books (many) and watching films. All the prejudices I had.

For the moment I'm very well aware of that life is happening now. This is definitely not just a rehearsal. But the funny thing is that from time to time I'm still surprised by the differences between real life and my prejudices. (Now for instance I'm much less prejudice about unemployed people.) Will that process ever stop? If I get very old will I then be a person without any prejudices? I thought normally the development went in the opposite direction... from being young and open-minded to having all preconceived opinions.

My experience can be concluded as "you don't know anything at all until you've been there yourself". And I'm still learning...